a man born of a virgin and man-made
virgin differ from a nun-bred virgin
and son. in respect of what had you stayed
a virgin ? sex and death are just versions
of life where the son is brought to nothing
just as Goldmund told Narziß in Hesse’s
novel. truly my mother’s suffering
and mine for so-called sin confesses
disability to touch and be touched
on both sides. I defied the deified
now illness is our crutch and all we clutch.
we diminish as you are magnified
through miserable birth that is now new death.
mother son - feel your first touch your first breath.
9 October 2021